My life has been like a war. I know everyone fights their
own battles but damn, my life has been
like a world war, honestly !
I fought from the moment I was born. To stay alive when no
one was giving me any chances of survival. Then, after I cheated death, I had
to fight to be able to walk. Won that battle too. After a couple of years,kids
from my neighbourhood started to call me “handicapped”, for their own
amusement. Self esteem got very low, obviously why. Still, I did not let them
win. I fought back, in my own way and took back what was mine. Changed the city
to go to highschool. One of the first best things I chose. But then something
else happened. Another battle of life and death matter. To win it I had to
experience a myocardial infarction. And
I was just 18! Come on! And just after doctors kind of fixed, this idiot, broken heart of
mine, I had to fight again against a man who kidnapped and tried to rape me. I
remember thinking that if I don’t run faster, I will die. I'm still really afraid of dying. I’m thinking about it 24 hours a day. Because of what happened.
Bad things come for free. I know this
very well. I could talk about this subject on and on and on….
But the point is, I’m not whining. And I consider myself
pretty balanced. As balanced as one could be in a situation like mine. I’m standing tall, I’m walking tall. Because
I fought and despite everything I might have lost, I won a lot. I’m still here.
I met people and learned to differentiate
falling in love from lust , found out how good and orgasm is,
enjoyed lots of dawns, rode horses, I went to a foreign country, crossed the
ocean, all by myself, twice and finally but not last, I literally jumped into
love and realized it is nothing as I thought it would be. The calm, the warmth, the comfort ..these
were all strange to me until I felt them with someone.
I was in hell and now I’m here. Dark, twisted(because you
never get used to being a normal human being again) but with pinky dust in my
heart and sometimes in my hands. Hands which I’ll use to do good. To do better.
To find better. I deserve it. I deserve
a great love, a great life. GREATNESS.
I also managed to summarize my story without being too
dramatic and I find that myself to be quite hard . But I made it and that is
another great thing to add on the list.
Long live the wars because they made me search for greatness!
